You know that i care about how they see me. Why would you say that?

You're not always right and you don't know how it feels to be me right now.

So I was doing a fair bit of reading - my older xanga/diaryland blogs the past few days. And ...

Why didn't anyone tell me I was a psycho-insane-hsc-crazed-annoying-maniac?


Practically all my blogs in 2006 were: HSC this, HSC that, or exam this, fail that. I couldn't go to sleep on most nights because it felt like I didn't do enough work. I would cry for hours if I didn't come top 3 in a exam - even if it was just a class test. I still can't believe I let such an insignificant event rule my life for so long?

Being a year older has meant so much more this time round. I'm starting to see the options, the roads we can take, it's comforting - for once fail =/= end of the world. Yet when I apply for job and they ask "what's your career goal?", really, mine changes every few months depending on my new favourite subject in uni, or what function I just attended. There's so many ways to build a life! (I want to be a primary school teacher~)

I can't wait till 2010!! It's going to be different, I'm going to do things I was always either too lazy or too afraid to do.